Here's the deal

I can't describe to you how much fun I'm having here. Barefoot soccer every other day at least, awesome slip and slides, mafia, chasing monkeys, climbing trees as homework assignments, Super Bowl Monday soon, and new Africa cd's from a cool guy named Eli I don't really know through Zachariah whom I do. I skyped mommy and daddy last night, and even though they couldn't say anything because the mic wasn't working, I talked for 35 minutes before I had to leave. Today was church, a little homework, and soccer in the beating South Africa sun. Everyone has been sunburned at least a little up to this point, and some people got fried. I wasn't feeling so well yesterday, but soon will have invested in a good supply of sunscreen, aloe, and snacks. Then I will have everything I could ever need.
But that's the problem.....
It's not that I'm not having fun. It's that I'm having fun. Everyone is getting so caught up in the "being in Africa" phase that I feel like I'm just a tourist. I'm here for a summer camp, and only have one more week left! Or that's how I feel. I don't feel homesick yet because it doesn't feel real here yet.
I didn't come here to have fun. And I know we haven't started our service projects yet. We're trying to get the classes out of the way, because, honestly, no one is here for the classes. But this period, this six weeks of a tropical vacation isn't what I need. It's great. But not what I need at all. I'm sure I'm just being picky. I'm being dramatic, because it's everything I imagined and more. But if the rest of the semester were to go like this, I would walk away with some cool realizations and some cool stories, but I wouldn't be transformed. I'm ready to be transformed, and I'm ready to take the steps to be transformed, but I can't help but feel like there's nothing here any deeper than sports, nature walks, and delicious food in unlimited quantities.
And I'm sure there is so much more here. Even as I type this, I realize how ridiculous it is to think nothing will happen on a deeper level here. But I'm tired of waiting for it. I've been waiting to get started here ever since I left 2 and a half years ago. I don't want to wait 5 more weeks, no matter how great they may be.

With that being said, my beard is coming in much thicker than I expected. 12 days!