Slowly Approaching

"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that he didn't trust me so much."
 - Mother Teresa

I feel like I've been here at school forever. I love it, but it's becoming dull. I'm so glad I came when I did and have the time here that I have had, but I'm ready to move on. I'm feeling stagnant again, and feel like my life has once again turned into a giant waiting game.
I've been really thinking about finally getting out of here lately, because I don't have much else to do. Making lists of things I need to do, thinking about doing them, preparing to do them, and everything else you can possibly do to delay actually doing things. My lack of productivity lately has been a result of having so much time to do them, and never actually getting started. But I have spent a lot of time thinking lately.
The thing at the forefront of my mind? The pressure of South Africa.
This quote really summed up what I've been thinking lately. There is so much that needs to be done over there, and I feel like God is calling me to make an impact this semester. The problem I run into is, I either don't think I can handle it, or I don't really want to. And I mean I want to, but I don't really desire it, deep enough in my heart to maintain any action I start when I get there. And I'm scared of this.
I don't doubt God. Not about this, at least. If God asks me to do something, I can do it. What God originates, He orchestrates. If I really believe that God is all-powerful, in control, and has a plan for me, then I have to believe God will lay the foundation for what he has called me to do. This much is logic.
So I believe God is faithful. The problem I'm running into is my motivation. I haven't been feeling too motivated in my relationship with God lately. I hope I'll get a jump start while I arrive in South Africa and never look back, but I'm not sure about it. I'm scared I won't be motivated when I get to this place I've been looking forward to and waiting on for years.
I'm scared this experience will be wasted.